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this song is about my father as a few of these tracks are.

i recorded the bulk of this song in june-july 2018. i had all of the guitars done for a very long time. no bass guitar, no drums, but every single guitar part was worked out and in place for about 5 months or so, just sitting in my ableton project files. when i got off my ass mid-december i kept putting this song off because 1. it's 11 fucking minutes long 2. the structure is very disjointed 3. it would be a bitch to drum to because there are a bunch of changes and i always record my drum tracks in 1 take because its hell trying to comp it when i'm the only one working on this thing and my drums and my computer are across the room from each other.

well i ended up finishing the instrumental in 2 hours because i knocked out the drum part on the 2nd take. and the bass parts are always easy. so thats cool

the song is called weasel because my dad kept calling people weasels instead of "fucking asshole"s or "dickhead"s like usual that day. i dont think i have ever heard him say that word before that day or after it. i guess he just had an obsession with weasels that day. weird.

i hope my rant at the end doesn't sound too edgy. it was improvised and i definitely tried to mask it because i know in a couple months i'll hate it. lol


im lying in my bed
trying to figure out how i feel
it's hard to tell when i know it's not real
but in time I'll see as i always do as usual
im shaking my head
at the man upstairs
its funny he says that he truly cares
drink yourself to death ill catch up soon
but until then ill be through

im crazy for contact
my eyes are glued to screens
its too bad that man has no clue what i mean
but in time he'll realise when he dies
things aren't what they seem
you sit on the laptop
10 hours a day
waving your dick in the wind but thats okay
sit on the floor and watch espn
while my life comes to an end

keep talking and talking
like a movie star
if you do it enough you might get the part
i hope you do so you go away
then there may be brighter days

my apologies were never real
not that you're aware
if you knew how i truly feel
you wouldn't stay there
waiting for you to say
you're traveling afar
oh that would be the day
and i hope you are
but ill keep it in my head
in my bank of fantasies
along with the horrible ones with you on your knees
on the floor whichever first i hope it hurts too much

-ooh interlude-

in the bar on jam night
illuminated by a phone light
i keep to myself as id usually like
you interrupt my headspace
with words of grace
such as a punch in the face
my brain runs through
scenarios that you'd
be fond of probably not too
my body is a disguise
you can see it through my eyes
im just waiting for the perfect time

-ooh interlude-

you have such a vocabulary
im so very impressed
once you've said the first word i've heard all the rest
but i still listen and try not to respond
but sometimes i really want to *************

and im so sick about it
i just wish you would fade
out from my way preferably today
id be fine without you
what else could i say
you make it seem like its a real fright

but i know its a lie it couldn't be anything else
i just want to knock your book off my shelf
i just wish you would try to be a real human sometimes
or you could do the other thing that rhymes

-ooh interlude-

dear god...

and ill end this song with a little parting verse
actually i dont know what to say


from Anhedonia, released February 22, 2019
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