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this is a song about my mom. her name isn't sophia but she goes by that sometimes because it is her mother's name.


sophia steps into the living room
she's not sure what she'll cook today
she sits down to read her sacred book
until it's time to pray

her husband steps through the front door
bracing himself for a fight
she tries to tell him off the only way she can
they never hear each other right

oh, she chants through the evening and then and then
oh, it's 20 years since she's seen her friends
oh, she seeks the answer to a better life
oh, the darkness calls her from deep inside

sophia gazes out onto the trees below
her green card seems as far as the leaves
with mindful eyes she cries but accepts her place in the world
there must be some point to this

she wonders what her mom would think of her son
he's started college today
so many miles from home approaching year 21
if only mother could hear her say

oh, god is a feeling and i feel it now
oh, i wish i could make it up to you somehow
oh, god save me from the burning fires of hell
oh, i was astray but now i'm doing well
oh, sophia's sacrificed so much for me
oh, i wish she'd understand what i want to be
oh, the only woman that could keep me sane
oh, i cannot tell her of my godless brain

ah, i don't know what i'm going to do
ah, the last person i'd want to fail is you
ah, the pressure of the sea is on me now
ah, i wish i could make it up to you somehow


from The Light Has Gone Out of My Life, released December 25, 2020
ben coates - vocals, all other instrumentation


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Harborer Canton, Ohio

-ben coates
-matthew ryan
-bryce snodgrass
-rubin shirley

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